alrighttt.
i know i haven't been blogging for quite some time
this few weeks have been like a roller coaster ride
lots of up and down seasons.
oh well. there are so many things happening lately
one after another
sometimes i also really don't know what to do
i don't know if what i'm doing is right or wrong
God i need to up my discernment.

anw. school has alrdy started for one week
long hours of lectures again
projects are coming up
i think more projects this yr
i've been feeling so super tired these few days
had tuition today after sch
wanted to cancel it and change it to tmr
coz it was raining so heavily
but when i reached bishan, the rain stopped
so i decided to go
if not i'll have to find another day to make up for it
which is most prob going to be next week
and i want to finish the last lesson by this week so i can get my pay

going for tuition takes up almost all my energy
my tuition kid is really super hyper active
she can't sit still for like five minutes to write her spelling
she gets distracted easily
she likes to play with my hair
and sometimes when im really irritated
i'll scold her and ask her to stop playing if not i'll leave
then she'll go back to her seat and start doing her work
but after 5min, she'll get distracted with something else
and i have to "threaten" her again
sometimes i'll ignore her and she'll automatically go back to her seat
but she's cute lahhh.

sometimes i really envy some pple's life
envy in a good way
im not saying i envy the world
but i envy their boldness, courage and the large amount of capacity they have to serve God and to love people
why cant i just be like them?

alright.
i am super tired now.
i think i need twenty four hours of sleep straight.
but i know it's impossible!