haiiis
i really dont understand it
why are things like that
it's not like it'll take their precious life away
maybe it's all self-centeredness?
i wonder why
it's time to rise up
all u care is only bout your own life
bout your own welfare
sometimes it just makes me feel frustrated
and it makes me wonder why are they like that
makes me feel as if i owe them a living
whatever happens is my fault
thats why it's never easy to serve man
there's always a price to pay

anyhow reached school for s&w at 7.45am
had taekwondo till 9plus
the coach had to torture us just coz it's the last lesson
had fun with my beatbox partner and the rest
went to the library to complete our interior design proj which is due this sunday
it was a test of my patience and i failed it
i spent at least an hour for it to finish rendering
aft an hour plus i couldnt wait any longer
so i decided to pack up and do it tmr
the irritating thing is that i can only do it in the campus coz of the network connection for the program
i guess i have to be there early tmr to start catching up with my rendering pieces
and there's ITE test on microsoftaccess tmr at 3pm
then head down for pst ulf's conference thereafter
this week marks the end of school term
tmr to be exact
study break next week
and of all days, my last paper is on fri 16 feb
which is like 2 days before cny
and 1 day before cny eve
and what makes it worst is that it's an aftnooon paper
when others end their papers on valentines day
how nice!

i've been busy working hard earning money by giving tuition
this kid that im teaching is really super active
she can hardly sit down for an hour to do her work
and at the end of the lesson she always put stuff into my bag
insisting that i must take it
that day she put 2 red packets into my bag and some princess pictures cut from some magazine
so cute
and i bought her pocky that day too

some trumpet just sounded just now
oh man! he's real irritating
he was blasting so loudly like there's no tmr
come on! today is the only night i talked on the phone
pls give me a break!
"minimise ur call", "im going to cut your allowance", "im not going to give u a single cent"
look who's talking later
arghhhh
i cant stand it anymore
it's really getting on my nerves every single week!

im addicted to the song "Journey"..
the lyrics just sometimes describe what im feeling

Journey

Its a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
Its a long, long journey
And I don't knw if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
Its a long, long journey
till I find my way home to You

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering whats my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know You'll be standing by my side
Its a long, long journey
And I need to be closed to You

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up
Till I can't see my soul
Will You break down these walls
And pull me through

Cos' its a long, long journey
Till I know that I am worth the prize
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath the stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything
Is out to make me lose control
Cos' its a long, long journey
Till i find my way home to You
To You

how true.
i got to start studying!
my exams starting next sat.
that's all folks!