alrights
im dead tired!
i just came out of a battlefield and now im entering another one
i've been feeling kinda emotional these days
and i dunnoe whyyy
sharing problems with pple is kinda hard
sometimes i just need a listening ear
i think im so used to listening to other's problems
that when it comes to mine, it's kinda hard
sometimes i feel so tired always to initiate a talk
i find it hard to open myself up
my eyes are so swollen now

sometimes doing followup, serving God, reaching out, going to school is like a routine to me
there's no joy
but i'll always try to remind myself
who i am doing all these things for
being a helper is not easy
there are times when i really feel like giving up
when i really feel like im doing for the sake of doing
i know there are sacrifices i need to make
and all the more during such times
it's God i need!
that's why im still holding on

on a happier note
the day is FINALLY here!!
im going for the upcoming water baptism!!!
praise God!
pray that everything will go smoothly..
but before that i really want to get my spiritual life right first
if not, i feel that it's of no use going for water baptism
and come back to this stage again
i want to go up to another level spiritually, mentally and physically
it's times like that that the devil will try means and ways to get u down
can i call it spiritual attack?

another 5 more weeks to the end of 2006
i wanna make this year count for God!
after going through so much
good and bad times,
sweet and bitter times,
God is always faithful and He always is!

sometimes i wonder who the pple of the world live their lives for
for money?
for relationships?
for nothing?
for themselves?
for a degree?
for material things?

at the end of the day,
all these things will not get us to heaven
neither can we bring it with us to heaven
these are things that God placed on earth for us to enjoy while we are still on earth
but more than all these things,
God has a greater purpose for placing us here
it is to know Him, share His goodness and do His will
im glad that im living my life for God and He has alrdy prepared all these things for me in heaven

oh ya! i attended miss ling's(im so used to calling her that) wedding matrimony yst..
my class was the first class she taught when i was in primary 5
i still remember she started off as a training teacher
it's been 7 yrs since then
though she taught me for a just a short period of time
it's amazing that we can still keep in contact until today
i'll never forget she was the one who first brought me to church
encouraged me, gave me spiritual books to read
so happy to be able to share the joyous ocassion with her!

okayys im going off to do my assignments now
loads of it to be done
and common test is coming REAL soon
i cant wait for this sem to end!
another challenging week ahead..!

when u cant see His hands, trust His heart