ogayss
maybe i shld update on how bad my day was
mayb it wasnt that bad aft all
but it became a little better lahh
coz my God is just so amazing!

first of all...
my mood was quite bad in the morning
i dunnoe why
there's this feeling that tells me today is a bad day that kind of thing

seondly...
i was late for sports & wellness(s&w)
coz of the take-so-long-to-come bus 52!
i waited for like 30min for it to come
i was supposed to meet my friends at 745am at the bus stop
and that always-take-so-long bus 52 came at 7.30am
it was really getting on my nerves!
and whats more
today was my first lesson for s&w coz i couldnt attend it last week
so.. i didnt get to choose the sport that i want
i was hoping that i'll get to join the same sport as my friends
and i didnt want to be late for the first lesson if not it'll leave quite a bad impression
i wasnt really sure if i can join them coz mt told me abt her friend's friend situation
which made her(mt's friend's friend) missed s&w for that sem
my friends left first coz i was really late
so i had to go in myself
i was praying hard on my way to school
it's just so amazing how God answers prayers!
sooo.. i quickly made my way to the sports hall
my heart was pounding so super duper fast
coz it was like.. i'll either be in or out kinda thing
i managed to find them and joined them
then i told the coach it was my first time there
and he insist that i find my name
so i told him again that it was my first time there
i was looking at his face expression and he look like he was going to say
'im sorry.. i can't accept anymore students"
but praise the Lord!
he asked me to write down my name and stuff
i almost wanted to shout for joy!
the sport that we took up wasssss- taekwando!
hahs! i really cant imagine myself taking up that sport man!
it was quite boring coz i still prefer netball

went for CATS aft that
made some new friends! finally!
they seemed to like know each other very well that kind of thing
but actually they just know each other for one week
i guess this class is pretty friendly

aft class...
i went to pri sch to look for my sis
then came back home
i felt like praying
so i just started praying and i know God knows it all
God is my present help
i was feeling rather moody and emotionally-not-stable today
you know how it feels when you feel that no one is supporting you
and u feel all alone
when u're feeling excited but the pple ard u just cannot be bothered
and think that it's not their business
i think the reason why i dont give my all is becoz i feel that no one is together with me
and when i give my all.. things dont turn out the way it's suppposed to be
and it turn out to be otherwise
thats why i think i dare not give my all
maybe im really useless
i think im just a good-for-nothing lahh
so many times it's been like that
again and again
and it's really not like i want it to be like that
i do want to make things happen
it really dampens my spirit sometimes when i cant make things happen
i dun feel good at all tooo

God.. let it all be done according to Your willl
i really dont know what to do...