everything doesnt seem to be going well
things doesnt seem to be improving
maybe that's what i feel
am i being too sensitive or what?

sometimes i just like to be alone
coz i get to concentrate on what i'm thinking
what actually made me keep keeping on
it's always the promises of God and the promises i've made
many times i want to give up
i'll always remember that i've given my word
to follow Him no matter what.

as i was listening to the song "take all of me"
i was reminded of the experience i had with Him during emerge
so i told God to take all of me
and i give Him my all in exchange for all of Him
and He said, "only if i'm willing to lay down my life for Him".
my replied was, "yes i'll lay down my life for You".
it's easier said than done.
it's not going to be easy.
definitely there'll be challenges
there'll be oppositions
there'll be rejection
it seem to be happening now.
but i know it's all worth it in exchange for all of Him.

i've been having this same feeling since saturday.
and i don't like it.
it makes me feel dry.

this is the time when i got to pray pray pray
and soak myself in the presence of God.

where are all my friends when i actually needed them the most?
i ponder..

i just need to hang on...